From: QEChat Log anine <-> sam

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Date-Local: 08 Sep 2421 19:22:07 +0000

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Subject: Chat Log anine <-> sam

[18:39]

anine: hey

sam: hey!

sam: how's it going out there? haven't heard from you

anine: been super busy! finally settled down a little

anine: we heard back from gliese, not as bad as we thought

anine: all still concerned over ross but watch & wait seems to be

the plan

anine: anyway, not what we're here for, i'm glad you heard from

kit!

[18:02]

sam: me too!

anine: and i'm glad you answered her. if you want to know what i

think, you waited longer than you should've to do that.

sam: you're right.

sam: i hope you don't mind i sent your love too

anine: no! Not at all

anine: i would've asked you to already but i wasn't sure if

[18:03]

anine: i mean it's been so long, i wasn't sure

sam: come on, you know kit, she can't have changed THAT much

anine: yeah but i always thought, you know

anine: eh, forget it

[18:04]

sam: what

anine: no it's nothing

sam: no it's not.

sam: talk to me

[18:07]

anine: do you know, we talked about marrying?

anine: kit and me

anine: it would've solved the biggest problems for both of us

anine: wouldve been perfect

[18:09]

sam: your idea or hers?

[18:10]

anine: hers

anine: you know i'd never have suggested it

sam: me either

anine: and she really tried

anine: she tried sO HARD

[18:11]

anine: but she coudlnt

anine: couldnt stand it, i made her stop

anine: i could see it was killing her but she wouldnt stop until

she had a panic attack

anine: even aftert hat she wanted to try again

[18:12]

anine: i wouldnt let her

anine: we both felt terrible about it

anine: but then i went and got married anyway

anine: because

anine: it was easier that way, i could deal better than she could

and it did solve a lot of problems for me

[18:13]

sam: the same ones she had

anine: yes

anine: and wouldnt so lve

[18:14]

anine: I mean if she'd just go to therapy

anine: it's not like we'd have loved her any less

sam: no

sam: but she wouldnt have wanted to be with us after that

sam: and you know wjy she wouldnt do it anyway

[18:15]

anine: yes

anine: she wouldn't compromise the way i ddi

anine: did*

anine: she held on to herself in a way i couldnt

anine: and god knows i HATED her for that

[18:16]

anine: for a long time

anine: i mean she had it so much worse than me and she just

anine: WOULDNT

anine: i mean

anine: she made me feel like

[18:17]

sam: you felt like a coward

[18:18]

anine: yeah

anine: that she could deal and i couldnt

[18:19]

anine: and then she joined voortrekker and that was even worse

anine: here she was, ready to go to another STAR STYSTEM

anine: because maybe there it'd be better

anine: and i mean

[18:20]

anine: we had such a hard time selling the no kids requirement

anine: i think that was as much as anything what decided her

anine: and, i don't know

[18:21]

anine: i just never felt like i could face her after all that

[18:22]

sam: so that's why you didn't come see us before she left

anine: between that and the fight

anine: yeah

[18:24]

sam: look, i'm not supposed to tell you this, okay

sam: but you need to hear it

[18:25]

sam: the last night kit was here before she went to join the ship

sam: we stayed up all night talking

sam: and that came up

anine: oh shit

anine: oh no

[18:26]

sam: NO

sam: stop

sam: listen

sam: you know what she said?

sam: she said she wished she was as brave as you

[18:27]

anine: what

sam: YES

sam: she didn't see it as you making a cowardly compromise

sam: i know that's how YOU see it

sam: but that's wrong

sam: and kit KNEW that was wrong

sam: you did what you had to do

[18:28]

sam: to have the best life you could with this bullshit government

youre stucck with

sam: kit respected that

sam: and she wished you'd decided to come

sam: so she could tell you she was sorry she couldn't help you

[18:29]

anine: on bulslhiy

anine: l

anine: loko i appreciate you tryign

anine: to make me feel better but

anine: come on we both know thats bullshit

[18:30]

sam: Dry your eyes and think a minute.

sam: You know me better than that.

[18:32]

anine: Yeah.

[18:33]

anine: I'm sorry.

sam: nothing to apologize for

[18:34]

sam: im sorry i didn't tell you before.

sam: if i'd known you felt this way about it

sam: but i shouldve told you.

sam: i'm sorry.

[18:35]

anine: its ok

anine: i need a minute

anine: brb

[18:49]

anine: you here?

sam: still here.

anine: look ive got a bunch of leave saved up

sam: you've got some leave right?

sam: haha

anine: YES haha

[18:50]

anine: so like i said things have settled down around here

anine: why dont i come see you before next friday

sam: can you get away?

anine: yea theres a luna shuttle leaving night after next

anine: ive been "mentioning" im going to stop on luna after i

rotate out

[18:51]

anine: to see what i can find out unofficially about the gliese

mission

sam: makes sense, ill tap my contacts over at the extrasolar office

sam: maybe get you something to take back, save you some time

sam: at least let them know youre coming

[18:52]

anine: ok

sam: its a good excuse

anine: haha yea

anine: even with joseph

anine: hes mad anyway with all the work lately

[18:53]

sam: not going to cause more problems?

anine: than i already have? maybe

anine: but you'll make me feel better about them

anine: wont you

sam: you know i'll do my best

[18:54]

anine: your best is mighty good, lover

sam: pas devant le CQE, ma cherie!

anine: haha ok ok

[18:55]

sam: save it for when you're here.

anine: oui, madame!

[18:56]

sam: i wish i didn't

sam: but i do still have some work left today

anine: i'll leave you to it, then.

anine: you'll tell me if you hear more from kit?

sam: of course

sam: i can tell her you want to hear from her

[18:58]

anine: not yet i think

sam: okay

sam: let me know when you're ready

[18:59]

anine: thank you!

sam: de rien.

anine: and

[19:00]

anine: send her my love?

sam: of course.

[19:01]

anine: off to go break the news

anine: and be properly apologetic.

sam: good luck!

anine: i'll be thinking of you!

[anine: Quit: it really does help..]

[sam: Quit: ]