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tw for my sick and twisted mind

7.6

i had two dreams i remember, one of them i was watching a movie that was like three real movies combined but now i can't remember which ones other than the hangover. i woke up thinking it was funny and needed to write it down but didn't.

the other dream i had was that i was digging around in a system at work and i found various notes i had written on coworkers shit-talking them, that i didn't remember writing down. i couldn't delete them and i remember thinking hmmm i hope this doesn't come back to bite me in the ass. i think that's definitely an anxiety dream based on starting my new job and how my relationships with coworkers may or may not change since i'm moving to an adjacent department. i have also been speaking maybe a little too freely on my opinions of certain people (my boss) since i feel like i have immunity now lol

6.12

i was working at pf changs again - this is a common stress dream for me. it's become one of my liminal dream spaces like school or a shopping mall or one of those endless bathroom mazes, where the location isn't faithful to what it looks like irl and it's also a never-ending labyrinth.

then i was traveling in a foreign country with my partner and we were in kind of a dangerous area in a giant air bnb, gunshots were fired outside and we saw people wearing ski masks running away. we were freaked out but fine. i had these two big bumps on my legs i kept itching and i thought they were giant mosquito bites, but eventually i realized they were two bullets and i didn't notice i had been shot earlier. i was able to pinch my skin and see the bullets and move them around like some skin-picking fidget toys i've seen online. we realized i should go to the hospital but we were strangely calm about the whole thing and i remember i spent a while picking out a good outfit to wear.

4.12

@punkreflex, one of her friends, and me were gallivanting around a mall. we were going store to store and laughed really hard at this place selling eric cartman wall banners. we ended up in forever 21. it was a bit tense though because the friend used to work there and was pretty recently fired. for some reason there was a vintage rack (lol) and i found the most perfect coat that was red with leopard fur trim. it was $79.95 but it was very worth the price. i was wearing it around while we shopped, when emma called me over because she ran into a boy from my high school. for some reason she thought we used to be friends and was excited, but i barely knew him so i was just like uhhh hi

sad that i woke up and that coat wasn't real

4.11

the nike air rifts i ordered online arrived and they were little kid electric blue with white and jelly accents but i was obsessed and wasn't mad they weren't the color i picked

4.2

(tw star wars) i was working on a sith base that looked like kashyyyk but i lowkey didn't believe in everything and was really anxious about being found out. a sith lord walked past me and i held my breath so i wouldn't be noticed. i was then awoken by a low blood sugar alarm and was super disoriented.

after i went back to sleep i dreamt punkreflex and i were at a giant mall together and we went into a build-a-bear. i picked out the pink axolotl and was super hyped but then she was like "why is yours so expensive?" and i looked and her stuffed animal was $16 and mine was $75. i also realized i had actually grabbed a purple dragon and NOT the axolotl...disappointment

3.23

i was leading my partner's sister through a local art exhibition but it was a bit awkward because she showed up very late and i had already been through it all...i could tell she wanted me to stay until she was done but i had things to do! i also felt regretful because there was a box of sea life stuffed animals and i had considered getting this hammerhead shark one for her but didn't do it.

3.19

do i date this the night of the dream or the next morning? i'm going night of.

i dreamt that two gaming youtubers i like that are friends irl were doing a stream together, but one of them was terminally ill. i took an hour break from the stream and when i came back it was wrapping up and they did an "in memoriam" section like at the oscars? and the terminally ill youtuber had died in the hour i was away. the other youtuber also found out about his sudden passing this way and she started sobbing so hard and i also started crying profusely.

it was so sad in the dream but in waking life that is objectively the funniest way to announce someone's death in real time by adding an "in memoriam" to the end of a twitch stream.