Musings on My Life - 07/07/2025
I'm gonna use this space again to write stuff that comes to my head. To write. I need to write things to get organized. Maybe like those exercises of writing for 30 min every day as soon as I wake up, from that book, Julia something's The Artist's Way... but the fact is, I sometimes pressure myself to update the blog, write a newsletter, or something for someone. an Instagram post... but this pressure doesn't let me get much done. this space is good for that. it's ideal... I forgot what I was gonna say, cause my cat interrupted me.
I think I was talking about how this space might be ideal for that. maybe someone will read it. I'm harping on that again. I think I already wrote about this here.
but anyway, I'm gonna list things, which is what I like to do.
I need to talk about what's happened in the last few weeks.
a lot of important things.
1 - the trip to Rio... amazing trip, hadn't traveled in a long time, so many things discovered and learned. Rio is a fantastic city, in every sense of the term. Unique. At the same time blessed by a layout and integration with nature unparalleled in the world, it has incredibly rich layers of our country's history, a pulsating metropolis full of culture, it's also neglected, with social inequality that keeps entire neighborhoods in constant war, favelas, parallel powers, ill-conceived public policies, waste in some areas... it's no wonder it inspires so many fiction and non-fiction stories. It's a city of magical realism, surreal.
2 - the reason I went to Rio was to run the marathon. this is another topic I could write a lot about but it makes me a bit lazy and afraid of falling into those cheesy overcoming stories, those CEO-who-runs things, etc... but marathon is something I really like to run and this one was especially cool. I did overcome injuries, losses, motivations (why do I even dedicate and spend so much on this?) hours spent training... and in the end, it's something you can't explain. but I want to do it again!
3 - my professional vocation. this is always on trial. Do I really like what I do? I think so, but I need to focus more on my work. I often get distracted by the tiredness of doing the same things and by lack of attention. online courses and some organization in the eternal evernote help me get back on track. Do I need the same sparkle in my eyes for architecture that I have for other things like my interest in technology?
4 - and no less important, quite the opposite. I'm going through an immense grieving process. very painful. this is a subject that won't come out here like this. I lost my mother at the end of April, and this loss is a rollercoaster of sensations, thoughts, various pains, emptiness. I think I'm even dealing with it well and accepting it, but it's a complex process that shakes everything we think about life and death, about what's really important. I think maybe this isn't the time to write about it here yet... but this is a start.
That's it, another raw, unedited text out of my gut straight onto the internet and the Gemini protocol. There it is.
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Janela
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