#july 02

Got on Instagram while having just sat with my bf hanging around with their friend. First post was Pete Holmes interviewing Ronda Rousey and his first joke was how she could pull off his balls like a paper cup dispenser, and my friends were talking about how a person was being pulled by the balls during a religious ritual. Very crazy and sync

may 16

after a lot of thought on my final project on my painting course i came to the siblings characters with harmony and balance theme, where 2 sibling would be posted on different sides of the globe and would magically trade resources with eachother to make their locations more habitable. One is a desert nomad and a gardener, the other a eskimo woodworker, and they can only do their things in collaboration. anyways i had this assignment of watching some movies paying a lot of attention to the compositions, and i chose tekkonkinkrete. the coincidence was, harmony and ying-yang were one of the major themes with the main 2 characters, 2 kids named black and white, and i had no ideia this was the theme, i chose this movie based on composition and artstyle. in the movie, Black would protect white in the physical world, and white would protect black in the spiritual world.

may 16

as obras que estavam tendo aqui no prédio, que eu achava ja terem acabado, recomeçam exatametne quando termina minha terapia online nessa sexta. fico feliz deles terem esperado eu fazer minha sessao para continuar quebrando a coisa

may 9

mayara came to me asking if we're fine. i spent like 2 months talking to my othe friends how she wasnt giving me the friendship i need and how i wanted to tell her i was removing my efforts. but i couldnt bring me to actually tell her. after a while i gave up and, and as our friendship grew apart from my removal of effort, i just accepted that new reality. but this week (may 5 - may9) i had a new ideia of just asking for my drawing tablet that is with her, bc i need it for work. i think that would fit our theme of avoiding real relationship responsibility. anyways before i managed to ask her that. she dm'd me about asking if we're ok. i said yes, that we just grew apart, bc busy life and work and what not, but i withhold the info that i purposely stopped giving effort and thats the main reason our rel died, bc she gives so lil back and is so absent. still have to ask her about the tablet. but real coincidence that after not showing up for months she appears just as i decided to

april 26

watched sinners with my bf and on the way to the movies some bars close by had caught our attentions because how crowded they were. after the movie we decide to check it out, just to walk and smoke our joint, and the bar we were most excited about had no crowd at all and seemed to just had closed. but turns out my friend marcos was working there, and maybe because of our serving tables history he and one other waitress friend of his called us inside to chill and smoke our joint bc they were drinking the last one after the shift. hadnt seen marcos in so long, but rememebered him recently because i went to ouro preto last week and saw the church he tattooed in my neck in person! so of course i thought of him.

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another one from the same day

a girl sent me a message in fetlife after some days, and i saw that just as i was leaving the movies, and while i was drinking water and thinking of a response to send her, a girl standing there talking to a boy next to the water fountain was talking about "bdsm relationship"

april 14

last night was watching "the secret life of walter mitty" awesome movie very cutey, was watching with my boyfriend bc we were obsessed with "severance" the tv show and they share a lot of the cast. Anyways theres a scene a guy is singing karaoke (something i love to do and i did it last friday and is been occupying a nice bit of my life!) and he bc a kinda important part of the plot. He was singing a song i recognized but not entirely, and then today, going to work and listening to a random spotify playlist "upbeat grooves" or smt like that, that was recommended to me by spotify bc i am listening to a lot of michael jackson and earth, wind and fire, and the damn song from the movie starts playing! it was dont you want me - the human league.

some night in maybe february

first log as a reminder bc i havent had one of those in a while

i was thinking about voyage voyage the song, and how i could never sing that in karaoke bc i dont know any french, and same day i was going to meet my friends at the karaoke place, on my way there passing through a random ass old people bar the song was playing, i even took my headphones off to listen to it clearly. It was cool i even thought of writing it in my synchronicities diary