6/24/25

Truly realizing that sometimes you gotta know that you will just never know. Doesn't mean i'm not gonna try to sleuth it out for for ages first tho...

life be like that

6/9/25

BORED

Worst days working from home is being bored and ADHD getting in the way of all possible productivity.

There has been a lot of drama in my life lately tho. Not connected to me directly, but friends coming to vent to me as an outside party.

Doing my best to give advice and console as much as possible. Really proud of how I've been able to show up for everyone tho??? Hoping to keep things balanced so I can support folx w/out burning out.

I just want my friends to be happy and healthy and conflict freeeee :c

5/28/25

Heading to Michigan City tomorrow w/my fam... gonna be interesting, but I'm really looking forward to it!! It's been a long time since we've had a family trip and not really since we've all become adults. I think it's gonna be gr8!

3/15/25

Game night to relax = most stressful chaos with friends

More to come...

3/9/25

Finally back home and I'm not feeling ready to hop back into the grind of everything, so i'm not going to thunk about it now. I had a layover in Colorado and it made me want to explore. I havent been there, but I think I want to live there.

Montana and Wyoming were great and I imagine they're even better not all completely frozen and snowy. It was beautiful! But I am just a small egg.

More to come on the glorious mountains...

3/7/25

Hiked in the mountains. Sighted an elk or two. Still holdin' out for a moose. Even got a moose hat!!!

3/5/25

Hi! I m n Montana! Deciding to get back to flounderin'

1/23/25

Work bad. Sleep good. Can't wait for the weekend. I like this job, but I swear it doesn't really get easier.

I just wanna be cozy and work on my paint by number like a lil old granny today.

1/10/25

Knowing all of these amazing people, but not really knowing how to talk is such a weird feeling. I feel like I've met so many individual's that I adore, but man, I'm still on the outside looking in? I think I am learning that I function needing a lot of validation and reassurance from other people to know things are going well and I'm not quite sure that's healthy. It's really hard to sit with something on my own. And when I really have to, it makes me feel alone.

I had this terrible nightmare last night about work and life and past experiences, but like, a horror movie.

I woke up today and wanted to immediately share it with my partner, who had already gone home for the morning and I just had this utter sense of dread. And I haven't felt that in a while.

I think not seeing my friends this past week with snow is having a real negative effect on my brain and maybe I'm going insane because of that. I can talk myself in circles when I'm alone.

Today, i think i'll try to reflect on this all a little more, but focus on not letting be the focus. I gotta play some music or make some art. Engage in things I can love with just me.

1/2/25

A little late as usual

Cheers to another year, it's good to be here